must. do. better.

okay, so i've made it through two weeks of workouts and i feel great. really, i do. i even doubled up one day last week because i missed a day due to crazy life curve balls. i've got only one week to go of regular week followed by a recovery week in phase 1. and then, we start again with phase 2. so, there's two very important decisions i've made.


1: i need to step it up. i'm working hard with my food, i really am, buuut i could and need to do better. it's been two weeks and i've only lost a pound and a half. i'm not sure if this is due to a beginning muscle gain or if i'm still eating too much. . .or the wrong things. . .or something. i just don't know, so i guess i need to work harder.


2: with this in mind i've decided i need to start waking up earlier in the morning to do my workout first thing. this is going to be really hard for me. i love being awake early and starting my day, but i hate waking up early.  i frequently wake up feeling refreshed, but i wake up slowly so i'm not ready to get out of bed. and then, of course because i lay there so long, i end up falling asleep. then i go back into dream mode and waking up is impossible, and i'm groggy. It's a vicious cycle. so, while this is going to take some serious determination and self-discipline i know i will ultimately really enjoy the benefits of this change.


3: There are three different program options for the regular p90x. classic, lean and doubles. originally i was going to do the classic program because, well, it seemed like a good place to start. however, because i feel so great and actually want to work out more every day, i've decided to do the doubles program. fortunately, phase 1 is the same for both so i haven't missed anything. i wanted to see how i felt after the phase 1 before i decided, but now i know, i'm ready. i'm ready to lose the weight! i'm ready to feel better about myself.


just two more weeks and i will post my 30 day pictures. at the very least, even if i'm not losing weight, i am getting fit and that's just as important as losing the weight, if not more really. and just doing something makes me feel better about myself and where i am. and that's good.